Words are pouring out my ears.

Overheard

2012-02-06T21:50:00.001+08:00

So at work I heard a conversation between two doctorates. Let's just call them Dr. A and Dr. B. Both of them own the latest smart phones in the market. Dr. A owns an iPhone. Dr. B owns a Nokia N9.

Dr. A: Dr. B, have you got Dr. L's phone number?

Dr. B: Yes, I have. So should I just text you the phone number?

Dr. A: I think you can mms me lah. You can just send me the number from your address book

Dr. B: Oh really ah? Have you switched on your mms?

Dr. A: I don't know how to switch on my mms lah. Which button should I use?

Dr. B: I'm not sure lah, I also don't know where to switch on my mms on my phone. Aiyoyo very difficult lah, I'll just come over to your cubicle lah.

Dr. A: Okay thanks.

Me in silence: hahahalolololroflmao

Takde lah.

2012-01-20T08:21:00.002+08:00

Takdelah. Tak nak bising pon.
Bising-bising pon bukan boleh jadi apa.
Nak jadi baik bukan senang,
Nak jadi jahat pon bukan senang.

Let's just concentrate on good stuff ye?

Salt and Sound

2012-01-19T10:46:00.001+08:00

Sounds like a band name hihi.

Eskimoyo.

2012-01-13T14:54:00.000+08:00

Eskimo has many sleeping styles.
But I noticed that this one style has been his favourite.
I noticed that he has been sleeping like this lately, but I just realized that this habit started way, way earlier.

Age: 2 months

Age: 3 months

Age: 4 months

Age: 7 months

Age: 10 months

Age: 1 year 3 months

Age: 1 year 8 months

Age: 1 year 9 months

I call this, Four Legs Facing Heaven.

Easter Egg (1)

2012-01-11T14:22:00.002+08:00

One of the main reasons why I started writing here.

*Easter Egg series will be my self-discovery posts, getting to know myself better. Project is starting from today, 110112, onwards.

Y U NO BUY part 2

2012-01-06T12:18:00.001+08:00

I have this fear of not getting enough things in my life.
Not enough money,
not enough time,
not enough shirts,
not enough dresses,
not enough friends,
not enough fun,
not enough of everything.

So I stock up on everything, just in case I need anything:
I stock up on facial tissue,
stock up on dresses,
stock up on shirts and so on.
I spend so much time and monayh on shopping
and realize that it's not enough still.

I don't need them all, but you know, just in case.

So I want to share with you this story.
You know how some stories can change your life?
How some stories make you rethink everything again?
This is one:

The Sad Story of Justin Case.

Once upon a time, there was a man named Justin Case. He was 36 and lived in a 3500 sq ft. home with his wife and 2 children. He had a first and a second, and a 2 car garage. He fit 1 car and it’s $450 payment inside the garage and the other sat in the driveway with it’s $450 payment, to make room for more stuff in the garage.

He had more stuff than time. He had to work 60 hours a week to keep up with all of his payments.

He wanted to live more simply, but Justin Case, he couldn’t. He worked hard and thought he deserved nice things and lots of things. Justin Case, he bought extras of everything. He was always worried that he didn’t have enough.

Justin Case, he rarely gave to charities, even if really cared about their cause, because he might need the money some day. Justin Case, the poor guy, he couldn’t give up his credit cards. He might need them for emergencies, points or a rental car. Cash would never be enough.

On some level he knew better, but Justin Case did nothing about it. Better safe than sorry he thought. Better to have too much than too little.

And then his friend came along, Justin Time. He told him his story of simplicity, and that with all that he sold and gave away, he still had enough. He didn’t even have to tell him how happy he was, but he did. Justin Case, he didn’t notice.

Source

I know I was a Justin Case, and I will try my best to be Justin Time.
Because I found out that quality time brings me much happiness nowadays, not dresses.
I feel happier doing these:

going for a jog with friends
balik kampung and eat durians
writing and painting

Oh well.

Y U NO BUY?!

2012-01-05T08:22:00.001+08:00

They keep asking,

"When are you going to buy a new car? Your kancil doesn't suit you"
"Hey, Suzuki Swift is selling for RM555 a month"
"Buy la new car, tak sesuwey sangat akak tengok"

Listen, I've had enough of this Y U NO BUY questions.
It's moi money.
I love my financial freedom.
I don't like to be in monthly hutangs.
I like to be able to eat like king.
and my stupid kancil car is enough for me: it's working, it takes me wherever I need to go.
Y U NO GET THAT?
Y U NO think I have enough?

Although I particularly think that Ford Fiesta is awesome,
just look at about how much I save monthly/yearly without car hutangs:

	Kancil (850cc)	Ford Fiesta (1.6L)
Car loan	-sudah habis bayar meh =RM0	RM750 (x12 months) =RM9000
Fuel	RM300 (x12months) =RM3600	RM600 (x12 months) =RM7200
Road tax + insurance	RM330	RM2379
Total	RM3930	RM18,579
Total savings per year	RM 14,649

I'd rather spend my extra moolah on food and travel.
(Himalaya here I come!)

When in any difficulty

2012-01-04T08:41:00.000+08:00

Recite:

اللَّهُمَّ رَحْمَتَكَ أَرْجُو فَلَا تَكِلْنِي إِلَى نَفْسِي طَرْفَةَ عَيْنٍ وَأَصْلِحْ شَأْنِي كُلَّهُ لَا إِلَهَ إِلَّا أَنْتَ
Allah humma rahmataka arjuu falaa takilnee ilaa nafsee Tarfata ainin wa aslih sha'nee kallahu laa ilaha illa anta

“O Allah, I hope for Your mercy, so do not leave me in charge of my affairs for even the blink of an eye and rectify for me all my affairs. Besides You there is none worthy of worship”. (Hisnul Hasin)

Zee Avi, u awesome girl!

2011-12-30T15:07:00.000+08:00

Such a humble and friendly girl!

So Kak Zah and I was at Amcorp Mall just now for lunch. At first we wanted to go to Midvalley, but changed the plan at the very last minute. So after having lunch and bought some books and (insert boring, mundane Friday lunchtime activities here) then it was time to go home. I queued up at the ticket booth. I saw a cute girl in front of me. Her voice sounds so familiar, but I still havent seen her face. When she turned around, GOD FORGIVE ME, it was ZEE AVI!!!

Then she went to a jewellery booth nearby and I quickly hurried up and said, "Excuse me, are you Zee Avi?", and she smiled, she said yeah. And that was it, I screamed like a fangirl (highpitch, annoying voice) - excuse me I got so nervous, cakap terabur2 berpeluh2 macam orang gila, and I told her I want to pengsan so many times - embarrassing!!!!!!!

I told her how much I love her songs and ladidadida (insert everything embarrassing you could think of, here). And of course to add to the embarrassment, I asked if I could hug her and she said "Of course!!!!!!" and gave me a big bear hug.

Ugh. Im too happy I forgot how unhappy I was right before that.
Hikhikhik *giggly*

The storm has broken

2011-12-30T11:13:00.000+08:00

Even the colours on my palette won't help me see,
I'll be as strong as old boots if I have to.

Kindness keeps the world afloat

2011-12-22T10:04:00.002+08:00

Fun

2011-12-22T09:01:00.002+08:00

Mutual addiction

2011-12-20T12:29:00.000+08:00

My mind is a madhouse I only share with you

You make me happy

2011-12-19T16:01:00.001+08:00

"I'm a sad person"
"You can't be. You make me happy"

Let it be redundant.

Kim Jong Il dies at 69

2011-12-19T13:00:00.001+08:00

The whole world looked at him in the most cynical way, yet the people loved him.
So big a name, so little is known about him.

I wish all NK people the best for their future.

My desktop background

2011-12-19T12:25:00.002+08:00

Howzzzaattttt?
(Click for biggur picturr)

Sweet tooth

2011-12-19T11:21:00.000+08:00

Apparently, having sweet tooth equal a sweet personality.

Whaaaat!
Well, I'm just not one of them.
I can't even stand looking at cakes, chocolates, candies, chewy biscuits etc.
They gave me toothache just by looking at them!
Buehhhhwww!

So research says that:

"Volunteers who chose a piece of chocolate over a non-sweet food item were found to have sweet disposition"

-Brian Meiers

Journal of Personality Social Psychology

I could eat sweet stuff as long as it is combined with anything salty.

I like to eat savoury snacks, like Tomato Flavoured Twisties.

I like to eat kerepek-kerepek.
I like to eat anything beefy. I like to eat sushi. Basically, I like to eat masin-masin.

Does that mean I have a masin personality?

I know someone who likes masam-masam. Yesterday, that someone ate up a whole packet of Sour Skittles without any crinkling on the face while I was getting tender jaw and salivating like hell from simply imagining the sourness.

So as Craig David goes...
"What's your flava? Tell me what's your flava?"
:P

So tonight.

2011-12-17T00:31:00.003+08:00

I JUST FEEL LIKE SCREAMING MY FUCKING HEAD OFF

AZMIRA,YOU STUPID,
SOCIALLY, LINGUISTICALLY INCOMPETENT!

ok dah.

Fairytale.

2011-12-14T15:04:00.001+08:00

Everything about her was broken and in need of an urgent fix
If he built it around him, it would have been a quick mend.

Trippy

2011-12-14T10:46:00.001+08:00

Bloody talk p.2

2011-12-14T09:28:00.000+08:00

A sad happy mask.

Bloody talk

2011-12-14T09:10:00.001+08:00

I see ghosts.
I don't want them around anymore.
Shoo.

At one point, you feel like screaming.

2011-12-13T16:50:00.000+08:00

Could it be a subconscious level of disgust?
Why so much evilness when there's so much goodness?

They reap what you sow,
They flip when you're slow.

I'm just a passenger but my mind travels on.

The Fable of Robot Love

2011-12-06T11:10:00.001+08:00

In the year 2525, engineers finally managed to build robots that looked like humans, acted like humans, and were ready to reproduce. Ten thousands robots of various types had been rebuilt, all of them female. A research team set out to design a male robot who would be able to find a good mate, found a family, and take care of the little robots until they were able to take care of themselves. They called the first model, Maximizer, M-1 for short. Programmed to find the best mate, M-1 proceeded to identify a thousand female robots that fit his goal of not marrying a model older than himself. He detected five hundreds features on which individual female robots varied, such as energy consumption, computing speed and frame elasticity. Regrettably, the females did not have their individual feature values printed on their foreheads; some even hid them, trying to fool M-1. He had to infer these values from samples of behaviour. After three months passed, he had succeeded in getting reliable measures on the first feature he tested, memory size, from each female robot. The research team made a quick calculation of when M-1 would be ready to pick the best and discovered that no one in the team would still be alive at that point - nor would the best female robot. The thousand females were upset that M-1 could not make up his mind, and, as he began recording the second feature, the serial number, they pulled out his batteries and dumped him in a scrap yard. The team went back to the drawing board. M-2 was designed to focus on the most important features and to stop looking for more when the costs of collecting further information exceeded its benefits. After three months, M-2 was exactly where M-1 was, and in addition was busy measuring the benefits and costs of each feature so that he could know what to ignore. The impatient female ripped out his wires and got rid of him, too.

The team now adopted the proverb that the best is the enemy of the good and designed G-1, a robot who looked for a mate that was good enough. G-1 had an aspiration level built in. When he encountered the first female who met his aspiration level, he would propose to her - and ignore the rest. To make sure that he found a mate if his aspirations were too high, he was equipped with a feedback loop that lowered the aspiration level if none of the females were good enough for him over too long a period. G-1 showed no interest in the first six females he met, but the proposed to number seven. Short of alternatives, she accepted. Three months later, to everyone's pleasure, G-1 was married and had two small kids. While writing the final report, however, the team learned that G-1 had left his wife for another robot. Nothing in his brain had prevented him from running off to what looked to him like a better deal. One team member pointed out that M-1 would never have left his wife, because he would only have accepted the best in the first place. That's true, responded the others, but G-1 at least found one. The team discussed the problem for a while and then came up with with GE-1. He was happy with a good-enough female, just like G-1, but was additionally equipped with an emotional glue that was released when he met a good-enough robot and adhered more strongly with each physical contact. Just to be sure, they inserted a second form of emotional glue into his brain that discharged when a baby was born and tightened after each physical contact with the baby. GE-1 proposed to a female as quickly as G-1 did, married and fathered three babies. He was still with them when the team finished the report. He was somewhat clingy, but dependable. Ever since, GE-1 robots have conquered the earth.

-Extract taken from Gigerenzer, G. (2007). Gut Feelings: The Intelligence of the Unconscious. London: Penguin Books Ltd.

PMS lah tu, demit

2011-12-05T09:37:00.001+08:00

Even a killing spree won't do me any good now.
and NO, being emotionally volatile is not a happy thing.
it's tiring no matter how much glucolin you consume everyday.

That place.

2011-12-05T08:56:00.001+08:00

If that's what they think what life is all about,
then I'm not missing any of it.

(Call me a sad old sod living in Boringtown, but seriously wtf is wrong with you people looking for peace in such a place?)

False Alarm

2011-11-29T13:37:00.001+08:00

Every time I want to write something important, it always ends up nothing, the most I could come up with, a title in the draft.

I feel a tad bit useless. I should've been writing something worth reading, especially for fellow teachers.

The 'aha!' moment always come up at the worst possible time ever.
So I would end up writing rubbish. Just a piece of junk, filling up the internet bin.

I want to write something about why is it that teachers feel that our curriculum specifications are rubbish.
I want to write something about why our pupils/students/teachers are so exam-oriented.
I want to write something about why do teachers hate short courses.
I want to write something about KSSR.
I want to write something about rote memorization and why do teachers still doing it whilst knowing all along that it doesn't work for English Language subject.
I have all the reasons, I just don't have a peaceful time to write.
I would write something important in near future. I promise.

...once I got this stupid-curriculum-that-takes-up-most-of-my-time out of my way. But to be fair, I learn, reflect and I relearn things when writing for this stupid-curriculum-that-takes-up-most-of-my-time.

Fungus Fiesta!

2011-11-24T13:53:00.001+08:00

No, it's not some kind of festival or whatever.
My room has been infected by black fungus/mold. So far, it has eaten up my wardrobe and it's disgusting, honestly. The worst part is because I have allergies, so I get itchy here and there and every morning, I feel like getting a fever. I didn't know if it was because of the fungus, I thought I got sick because of the rain, but this could be one of the reasons. Ntah.

The night I found the mold on my wardrobe, I simply wiped it off using Dettol surface disinfectant spray and I thought that was just it. Horror of the horror happened on the next day, when it was still bright, I found that the inside of my wardrobe is also infected and I found spores on clothes inside it. You can never be too careful with this fungus problem, so I decided to send ALL of the clothes in the wardrobe to laundry. Yuckssss! Geli is one thing, I coughed and sneezed when I come near the wardrobe. So that's the end of the wardrobe's life. Bye bye wardrobe. You have served me well. Though I like you very much *sobs*.

I found that the wall and the floor is quite cold, thus, it provides a comfy place for the mold to grow. You see, my bedroom sliding window takes up the entire length of the wall, so the sun shines straight into my bedroom. But because of rainy season, I close the window, but during midday when the sun shines brightly and warms up my bedroom, it dampen the air and the level of humidity rises. So the mold grows exponentially and I found them having partay at the back of the wardrobe especially, it was very cold and damp.

I put my air purifier for two days straight because I couldn't sleep because I am a paranoid and now it's dead (note to any workers/laborers, overwork kills). For the love of goddddddd, why do you have to do this to me now?!!

I need to buy a dehumidifier. $$$!

Milestone Moon

2011-11-22T11:15:00.001+08:00

This is either the first or the last house
This river
Runs through
And my mind is a mad house I only share
With you

Legs are dangling over
This old jetty here
And my light is
Supplied by
Nothing but the brightness
Of the Milestone Moon

Ripples in the water
Tells me that you are near
And as always it's a false alarm
If you wait too hard

Not long now
You'll be in my arms

Sitting patiently
For your return
When will I learn
That soon
Time will burn

Wondering and pondering
If I've been here before
Or am I a new born
Waiting to learn more
I want to learn more

Not long now
You'll be in my arms

With nothing but the brightness
Of the Milestone Moon
[repeat until the end]

Surprise surprise!

2011-11-18T09:50:00.001+08:00

Went to KL live to see Zee Avi!
Woohoo!

http://www.youtube.com/user/KokoKaina

Cat and mouse

2011-11-13T11:15:00.001+08:00

Tee hee!

Source

Google Tricks

2011-11-12T16:10:00.001+08:00

If you google these tricks up (excuse the pun :P), you can find that there are about 9-10 tricks that you can play around using google. But my favourite ones are:

Google gravity

Go to google.com and type (not paste) "google gravity" and click on 'I'm feeling lucky'.
Tadaaaaaaaaaaaa...watch your world comes tumbling down.
DONT STOP THERE, go on and use it as usual. Go to the search box and type something and press 'Enter'. Teehee.

Find Chuck Norris

Go to google.com and type 'Find Chuck Norris' and click on 'I'm feeling lucky'.
I won't spoil it for you. Go have a try :)

Do a barrel roll

Go to google.com and type 'do a barrel roll' and Enter. Weeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

_____________________________________________

While writing these, I was listening to:

Guillemots: "Made up Love Song #43"
Freelance Whales: "Location", "Ghosting", "Starring", and "Kilojoules"

Eskimo the cat

2011-11-12T12:19:00.001+08:00

I have been really caught up with work this year. I have been sent around Malaysia to conduct short courses. So, in a month, I would be home a week or two. Most of the time, I would be on the go. Thus, Eskimo and Oreo cannot stay with me. They didn't stay with me since last June. They stayed with Mak & Abah in Seremban with the rest of the cats: Osim, Popeye (aka kecil menggelinting), and Embong.

Osim the ginger, Popeye (kecil n kurus despite huge appetite), Oreo and Eskimo, keeping Emak company.

That's Embong, Osim's first baby

It seems that Oreo had a great time in Seremban. He has been a great brother to Osim and Popeye and a great uncle to Embong. He likes to roam around in front of our house (but he's very very timid to strangers, and would run away every time somebody wants to go near him - so I'm not worried about him getting catnapped by strangers).

BUT........

My dear Eskimo yang manja cannot stand having other cats around him. He likes to be pampered, he likes my attention undivided. Just for him, uhum, all attention just for him. So he got a bit stressed up living in Seremban with the rest of the cats. When he got stressed up, he would intentionally pluck a bunch of his fur off. He would lick his fur non-stop, developing OCD-like behaviour. And he also becomes a very, very grumpy old man. He has this angry face, like kerut-kedut in between his brows and on his nose to show that he's annoyed. Poor kitty. I have no other choice but to take him home with me. Plus, my travelling has decreased this month. This is Eskimo 2 months ago with all the shedding and furplucking habit.

You can see on his tummy there was a big bald patch

Cimo, cimo, anyunyunyunyu nyomey nyomeynye cimo

So, long story short, now he's back with me. I took him to see Dr Edmund since he's quite near to my house, plus I heard that he has a good reputation. I should say, he is very caring towards Eskimo. Nice to have a vet who is concerned about your cat as much as you do. At the clinic, we look for any signs of fleas, earmites, but could not find any. So, it's either food allergy or stress. So he prescribed Eskimo with some anti-itch pills, topical cream and also suggested a new diet - Royal Canin Hypoallergenic (cost about RM84 per kg)

"No, doctor. I don't eat anything but wetfood sprinkled with catnips. Thanks anyway"

I had to come back after 2 weeks, and Eskimo has increased his weight as much as 8% of his body weight. He was a bit kurus when he was in Seremban due to stress. Now that he's the only cat in the house, he eats happily and would return to his food bowl so frequently. He also demands breakfast to be prepared at 6a.m. in the weekdays and 8-9a.m. in the weekends (he sleeps in during weekend)

So this is Eskimo recently:

Back to his fat-self, I mean, cat-self again.

Disgusted.

2011-10-27T07:57:00.002+08:00

Yucks!

One bag travel

2011-10-14T10:02:00.002+08:00

Im going for a short 8-day break in Cambodia with a very very very light backpack.

Things in my backpack:

Clothings
x3 T-shirts
x1 harem pants
x3 pair top undies
x6 disposable undies
x1 morning towel

Medicine
x10 gastric tablets
x10 antihistamine tablets
x10 painkiller tablets
x1 Yu Yee oil
x3 handiplast
x1 hand sanitizer

Toiletries
x1 toothbrush & toothpaste
x1 pack of wet tissue
x1 travel size (that tiny bottles) set of make up remover, moisturizer, hair wax, lotion etc
x1 travel size shower gel
x1 travel washing paste

Misc
x1 pair of scholl sandals
x1 phone charger
x1 phone
x1 colour copy of important documents
Passport, moolah

It sounds like a lot, ya? Nope! All of these takes one third of my back pack capacity.
I think altogether it is still less than 2kg.
I'm wearing a t-shirt, a pair of harem pants, nike sneakers, buff multipurpose headwear (so convenient!!) so basically heavy stuff like sneakers are put on me, not in the bag, thus will reduce the weight of my bag.
Can't wait! Rawr!

I miss you Apeng

2011-10-13T15:14:00.001+08:00

Dear Apeng,

Its been a year and a month plus already since you are gone.
and I still feel the aches from missing you.
You are the best cat I've ever had, Apeng. Love you so much.
I know you must be happy up there in kitty's heaven,
but please know that I miss you terribly.
I still remembered when it all started.
You refused to eat and your nose looked a bit pale.
I took you to the vet, he said,
"He has got jaundice. Usually, he won't survive long".
I was so shocked when I heard that, Apeng.
How could that happened? You were an indoor cat.
Where would you get the flu from?
Apeng,
I thought you would live forever.
I thought you would be there to watch tv with me.
To curl up on my feet at night.
To play police sentry with me.
You weren't like any other cat.
You were so loving, and instead of roaming outside the house,
you'd rather sat next to me and listened to me complained about my day.
And then we'll watch tv together.
I miss you so badd :( :(
You died in my arms on the way to the third vet.
I felt like the other two didn't try hard enough.
I was not willing to give you up yet.
I tried everything to make you healthy again.
You were already so yellow and you couldn't walk the last two days.
Even to the very last day,
you waited for me to come home.
And I fed you and lied down next to you.
You would stare into my eyes and I told you many many times then
That you are the best cat ever.

You look like you were sleeping. You were so yellow.

I love you Apeng. Till we meet again.

I caught the sun on my way home

2011-10-12T16:16:00.000+08:00

Orang kata jangan digenggam pasir terlalu kuat.
Nanti akan lebih banyak jatuh dari yang dapat.

...but...

I feel like menggenggam pasir sekuat hati.
Sejam lagi.
tiktiktok.
Jangan pandang jam.
Time passes by so slowly for those who wait.

Thinking thoughts

2011-10-12T09:00:00.001+08:00

her thoughts wandered; but thoughts had not wandered away from her, for they are never absent from us, they only slumber. But those that have not yet stirred come forth at their time, and begin to stir sometimes in the heart and sometimes in the head, and seem to come upon us as if from above.

Anne Lisbeth,
Hans Andersen.

Ghostly

2011-10-12T08:56:00.001+08:00

What if the body dies?
and all the goodness dies with it.
Will you still love the soul, so impalpable?

almost

2011-09-13T17:02:00.000+08:00

almost had it.
almost!

Let's be merry as always and dont think about it. Afterall, I am. So I guess it doesnt matter.

Aching

2011-09-13T16:50:00.001+08:00

Like, out of nowhere?

*sigh*
must be ovulating or something.

Though this week has been great, like a complete family :)

3p.m.

2011-09-05T15:12:00.000+08:00

I think you are magic.

:)

2011-09-03T12:11:00.000+08:00

Totally love this song.
Anyways, I was thinking, you were wondering if it will change us.
It doesn't and it would not.
We'll still be best friends when all turns to dust

No doubting

2011-09-02T21:12:00.003+08:00

i have no doubt about it

Without you its a waste of time

2011-07-15T20:11:00.000+08:00

Flamingos by the lake

2011-07-15T19:57:00.000+08:00

Just when you are about to break,
I'd like you to know that I love you to bits
and that I have been loving you all this while, regardless.

Flamingos at the break of dawn

2011-07-15T19:52:00.000+08:00

Just when you are wondering,
I'd like you to know that I'd love nothing more
than to be by your side.

2011-07-15T19:39:00.003+08:00

wholemeal oatmeal <3

Just being silly

2011-07-08T02:48:00.000+08:00

d d d d dooooowwwwwnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

gesundheit

2011-07-08T01:05:00.000+08:00

Loving the grass oh so green on this side instead
and the red sun and the brown moon and the blue night sky.

Nothing but pure bliss
when there is nothing to miss.

These tears.

2011-06-28T16:30:00.000+08:00

I cried not because I hate you.

Not because Im angry at you.

Not because I am sad.

Not because I am in pain.

Because I have been missing you so badly.

and I have missed you ever since.

and because I care.

Popped!

2011-06-20T12:29:00.000+08:00

I thank you God for the gift

Fav song of the day

2011-06-15T16:07:00.001+08:00

Better last

2011-06-14T11:42:00.002+08:00

I wish you love and happiness

2011-06-14T08:39:00.000+08:00

Bila suka, dipuja-puja.
Bila dah tak suka, dihina-hina.

:')

B-b-b-bad to the bone!

2011-06-13T14:03:00.000+08:00

Money is the root of all assholeness.

Re-listen, re-read

2011-06-13T08:55:00.000+08:00

There are so much of you,

But that is not why,

It's just you.

I love

everything

anything you.

membebel sekejap

2011-06-09T15:05:00.000+08:00

Updates:

baru buat passport baru sebab yg lama dah expired. Rupa dalam passport macam tgh high. Dem!
tadi beli jeruk guava. Sedap nyiiieeerrrr
beli game scrabble for ipod. hihi addicted cam haram walaupon tiap2 kali kalah
seminggu ni duduk kat hotel kat shah alam membazir masa atas nama mesyuarat.
seminggu tak buka twitter, tatau hal perkembangan semasa dan gosip2 terkini uols
baru perasan tak buat log since january. fu*@^$**#^%. arrrrr
rindu kat amau2. dah lama tak bawa pergi jalan2 T_T

Not an android.

2011-06-02T13:37:00.000+08:00

By all odds
I trust you

Sumimasen

2011-06-01T14:25:00.000+08:00

Busy, sick, sick, sick and sick again.

But you have been extremely wonderful as you have always been.

Kind to eyes, mind, heart and soul.

I can never return as much.

I have been of much inconvenience, gomen ne?

Figured.

2011-05-27T17:44:00.000+08:00

Some things I've never noticed until recently figured out:

1. I can rest my tummy on the sink edge. Since its muffin-like and round.
2. When I eat, my spoon would contain a proportionate quantity of food per spoonful, e.g: a slice of onion, a slice of carrot, a bit of nasi, a bit of ayam etc.
3. I didn't say "please" when I want a favour. I thought I did. Sorry...T_T But you can't teach old dogs new tricks, so it's going to be tricky
4. I am an Azman, girl version. Chait.

Bipolar

2011-05-27T15:29:00.000+08:00

geli anak tekak aku

Lost moments

2011-05-26T10:40:00.001+08:00

Hot tea

2011-05-25T09:33:00.000+08:00

I never asked for someone who could offer me the stars at night
Just someone to lay down and watch them with

Troll

2011-05-25T08:32:00.000+08:00

Mungkin terlupa

Mungkin alpa

Hati merajuk

Minta dipujuk

Sibuk mencari

Kepentingan diri

Memasang badan

Macam satu kepentingan

Yang hilang sudah

Terhantuk terngadah

Tak guna menangis

Air matakan habis

Yang pergi hilang

Tak akan pulang

Mata meliar

Kata sumpah setia

Biarpun lakonan

Semua tu bukan paksaan

Menuding jari

Terkena hidung sendiri?

Plans

2011-05-24T12:21:00.000+08:00

Entwined like rays of sun and water on the sea floor

Beautiful, isnt it?

Sacrifice

2011-05-24T10:16:00.000+08:00

I do not want you to hold my burden
Scarred for life
Hurt for eternity
Though it makes us stronger
I wish you didn't have to bear my pain
I love you with all that I have

IMYVM

2011-05-23T16:39:00.000+08:00

Lovely eyes
lovely heart

Quote sharing

2011-05-23T08:15:00.000+08:00

The difficulty with marriage is that we fall in love with a personality, but must live with a character. -Peter Devries

Thanks Kak Zah for the quote

Giddiness

2011-05-20T16:51:00.002+08:00

Hi hi hihihihihihihihihih hi hi hi hi hi hi hihihihihihi hihihihihi

Morning prayers

2011-05-20T09:37:00.000+08:00

Loose and let loose

Hearts are pounding, thumping the chest

Restraint.

It shouldnt be long. Before we knew it.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2011-05-19T17:39:00.002+08:00

Few minutes after the previous post, I accidentally pulled one strand out. Fug you trichotillomania!

Perseverance

2011-05-19T17:27:00.000+08:00

I have not pulled my hair for one full day.

hell yeah,

If it's meant to be

2011-05-19T12:03:00.000+08:00

If all else fails, have faith in His plan.

Tea reading

2011-05-18T17:11:00.002+08:00

So, another attempt to procrastinate at work is by having my tea leaves read. With great honour, my tea leaves was read by noanevu because he was also idling and off-tasking from work. Whadaya expect, it's 3pm in the afternoon after wesak holiday.

So here is my tea leaves:

"hello.
I saw umbrella, 2 person, a boat, a hat, and a club in your tea.
So its like you will have a change in role, you'll be in a worthwile journey, with protection from harm. But you are also in situation that needs alert caution.
With two visitor, someone so close, and someone near.
It's a big anchor. It's stability and instability both, but weighed abit on instablity since its abit closer to the bottom adventurous journey indeed I guess"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

A good kind of pain.

2011-05-18T13:50:00.000+08:00

Painkillers kill all sorts of pain except heartbreaks.

But it's good to feel pain than nothing at all.

ZOMG

2011-05-12T08:26:00.000+08:00

A few hours more.
A few hours more,
A few hours more!
Up up!
Be merry!
Be happy!
A few hours more,
Be safe!
A FEW HOURS MORE!!!

*fainted*

Three rounds and a sound

2011-05-12T00:10:00.003+08:00

Funny karma

2011-05-11T22:54:00.000+08:00

If you were me, you wouldnt believe it either!
After dreaming for so long, how could a dream come true,
after all its just a dream. Isnt it? No.
Ive had these sweaty palms for so long
you didnt notice it but you do.
Thats more than I could ever wish for

Pit-sniffing

2011-05-11T13:57:00.000+08:00

How da ya like it?
hm hm?

Counting hours and minutes

2011-05-11T11:26:00.000+08:00

I hope we dance tonight

Home

2011-05-10T14:11:00.000+08:00

is where the heart is.
Nak balik nak balik nak balik nak balik nak balik!
NAK BALIKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

10th of May

2011-05-10T10:38:00.000+08:00

Feels like celebrating.
dudu du dudu

Land of Narnia

2011-05-10T09:59:00.001+08:00

Remember Narnia?
Lucy found her ways into the wardrobe,
to find that there is a magical world that awaits them.
So why bother about living in a magical closet?
:)

Woah Feb 8?

2011-05-06T10:16:00.000+08:00

Feb 8 is quite a long while ago, isnt it?

That was the latest entry I complained about my old friend, si period pain yang berdebah. I didn't suffer much pain for last couple of months in saying that, I was too occupied with work I guess.

ugh.

*grumpy*

Sakit perut, sakit kaki, kaki sejuk2, tangan sejuk2, perut lenguh and crampy, and the list goes on.

Left is left

2011-05-05T08:34:00.000+08:00

Burning jealousy

2011-05-04T09:42:00.000+08:00

I wish I could go too.
I wish I was there.
I wish for a hongi.

Selamat pagi

2011-05-04T08:47:00.000+08:00

It's been raining every morning,

So dark and gloomy and grey,

I miss my sunshine,

Come back sunshine, come back and shines the world.

Bodoh

2011-05-03T21:16:00.000+08:00

Jangan kau saiko sorang-sorang boleh tak?
Be strong at heart, please? You stupid girl. Stupid, stupid girl.

A fiction 2: A Turnaround

2011-05-03T00:01:00.001+08:00

Prologue:
All for good reasons.
Although maybe we can fall at the same place someday.

1.
God and His intervention
An apology and an acceptance
A book and its story
A song and its melody
An inhale of breath
Another apology and another acceptance
Flaws and the entirety

2.
Life is beautiful, why haven't we noticed it before?
Why the anger?
Why the sadness?

3.
Tears
of sadness
of longingness
of stupidity
of pains
and of happiness

Epilogue:
No matter how hard the wind blows,
the leaves fell at the same place, don't they?
Is it because they were from the same tree in the first place?

Consequences as an adult

2011-05-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

Things that we do,
Choices that we make.

I hope I am doing the right thing.
Be it noise from here and there.
For consequences as an adult do not affect only me as person.
I almost forgot I belong to a community which I should conform to.

Forgive me.

200th post

2011-05-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

p/s: thank you, source.

Weeeeeeeeeee :D

2011-04-27T11:43:00.000+08:00

We dont need a meal, what as is, is enough.

Activity 5: Couplets and sonnets

2011-04-27T01:08:00.002+08:00

couplet:
a stanza consisting of two successive lines of verse; usually rhymed

sonnet:
a verse form consisting of 14 lines with a fixed rhyme scheme

Here comes mine:

Things that I missed,
are longer than a list,

I wanted to be freed,
from lust and greed.

I wanted to hold you dear,
without a dust of fear.

I wanted to stay,
instead of going astray.

I wanted to be true,
with these flaws you value.

I wanted to believe,
and forget all this grief.

But now I am free,
For thou art with me.

The word **** you

2011-04-27T00:11:00.000+08:00

is not sufficient to describe how I feel about you, blue cheese. Hmm

The Shhleeping Beauty

2011-04-25T23:07:00.001+08:00

Deep, deep sleep.

And waits her for a knight,
clearing all the thorny bushes,
making his way,
for his true love kiss,
awaits in a lofty mountain.

What they didnt tell us, is that,
Hers is the wait that brings pain
augmenting aches
that seep through the veins and every inch of the bones
Throughout the long, long sleep
she screams in vain; in pain,
And how could we knew
when she sleeps with a smile on her face?

Deep, deep sleep,
'Til a true love kiss.

A pill of relief

2011-04-22T13:12:00.002+08:00

Daily dose recommended.
Daily dose taken.

Interdependency.

Stop there.

2011-04-21T12:34:00.000+08:00

Dear past,

Things you could have known.
Things you would have said.
I forgive you.
Please listen to your heart.

Something to think of

2011-04-21T08:54:00.002+08:00

Moments fade away; but there's always something new

Dear Kitty,

2011-04-21T00:38:00.000+08:00

Can you tell me why people go to such lengths to hide their real selves? Or why I always behave differently when I'm in the company of others? Why do people have so little trust in one another? I know there must be a reason, but sometimes I think it's horrible that you cant ever confide in anyone, not even those closest to you

Yours,

Anne